Monday, August 5, 2013


Nothing is impossible, or could it be?

Hello readers,
Its been a awhile since I write or post here.
I am doing very well and I hope you are too.

Today, I feel like writing and posting and decided to post about dreams. Or likely to be my dreams.
Every single day, I live in a world where most of the people is really unfair , or could it be my life that is unfair ? I don't know. There was times where I cried painfully, thinking about my unfair life and what could happen next.
I, sometimes live in a world where people never actually appreciates me. Through the pain, I tried my very best to reach success. I wasn't saying that I was hoping for people to compliment me, though I have nothing for people to compliment me about. Pretty much lets say, I am used to it. I am used to being un-appreciate.

But there is one thing, one thing I couldn't stand taking, hearing,feeling.
"You dreamed too much, you dreamed too big. Better stop and focus on a thing that you can easily achieve. Stop dreaming cuz yours will never come true"

How about no?
This is my dream, at the first place I don't even understand why would people cares about my dream. It is my dream, I know what I can do and what I can't.
I know, my dreams sound really impossible to achieve, but if other people can, why can't I?
I have to be positive and I will always will. I will work hard, because dreams never come true through magic, it takes sweat, determination,positive thinking and hard work.

I may not be the genius girl in class, the best in every subject, not even the girl who gets straight A's. But, if I can dream it, I can achieve it.

I won't be alone, I have to angels that will be going with me. Will be climbing the mountain with me.


Dreaming dreaming, will you ever come true?
Will I ever be on the top,
Will I ever make them proud?

Trying trying, will you help?
So I can open my eyes and ,
be where I actually belong?

Working working, is it worth it?
To be where I wanted to,
with people I really love?

Holding holding, my beasties' hands,
Born together,
Achieving together,
Always together,
Friendship forever.

Dreams my dreams, I know you will  come true,
because I believe in you,
And I believe in me.

A little poem I wrote that explain my feelings.

Love you both, Jazzy and Fie.


Friday, February 15, 2013

Last Word.

Myself ,
Should I sleep ? or Should I just wake up ?
Should I continue dreaming ? Or should I just go back to the reality.

You know , there was a day ,when you talk to him. He was once the one who you think of everyday. The one who listens to you complaining about little things. The one who laughs with you . You talked to him everyday and you missed him so much when he wasn't around. Then he sang a lullaby to you so you fell asleep , or he wrote you a song , or maybe he sang you a pretty silly song that make you smile every time you think about it. 

And then there was a day when it was all like a dream and all of it completely lost from your sight. You and him are not like before. You have changed your  mind about something you are not sure . He was completely happy to have you , but its all gone with your last word. Then you start to think of why you did that . It was a great phone call when you suddenly think of something . You think you loves someone else . A great phone call had changed into a night mare to him after you said lets break up. Why would you do that ? You felt completely lost. 

Your life has changed. Part of your heart is gone ,gone with him. You hurt him with those last word . You want him back . You want his love back. Then you stop yourself , why would you do that ? You hurt him. You make him disappointed. You ruined his life. Then why did you think of coming back ? Shame on yourself. 

Then you heard that he still loves you. He thinks off you every night that he never ever forget you in his life. What do you say ? 

Then you realize you are between dream and reality . You get lost between what real and whats not. 

You are back together with him. You are happy once again. You finally gets his love back. He stills love you like he used to do. He calls you everyday and always write a song for you . You feel like the happiest girl in the world. He talks to you every day again . 
Then you realized that its just a DREAM. That will never happen. Never again.

You feel sad about everything. Every day you think of him . You want him back . But you don't want to hurt him twice. You love him, he is like the only one that stick to your hard. Every songs you listen reminds you of him. You live your life alone and thinking when will you completely let him go. To another girl , another girl that will replace you. Then you realized this is a REALITY. Its killing you completely inside. 

That last word , you never wish to say it again.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Drama is part of me.

Acting ,Singing, Dancing . Thats all you can think of when it comes to drama . Drama is fun ,everything about it is so perfect. Why ?

They make me escape from reality . Terrible reality . I might not be myself when acting . But the feeling is different, very different .
I am enjoying it . I am loving it. I am feeling it.
Why ? Because they are around . My BEST FRIENDS.
I might act as a different person ,run away from reality ,but one thing that never change ,I have THEM. No matter where I am ,who I am . They are still around .

The feeling of yes or no was inside . Should I join drama again this year ? Should I spread my wings and be someone else again this year ? Should I ? or Should I just leave it to anothet people ? Should I just give up this year ?

I stopped . I looked at my best friends. Yes or no ?
YES. Those feeling that I felt last year came back . The feeling of joy and sadness . The promise I made to win again this year . YES . I'm doing it. Why ?

Because the stage was made for us . For us to perform ,for us to do our best . This year is belong to us . I want to be on stage again and do it again . I want to do my best since its our last performance . There is no more next year to wait to it. Its this year . Its our year .

 I miss all of it. I miss the feeling of performing on stage . I miss the feeling of sadness and happiness. I want more , I want more of it and its happening this year . No one can stop us .

Thats it . I set my mind to " I will win this ". And we will . We will do the best of our best . We will , nobody can beat us ,all eyes will be on us . I promise .

The Story Of Us. Thats what I call it. Its about us . It will be our last ,I dont know if we can meet again another year ,so let this year be our year . I dont care what the other will say about us , I dont care if the other think we are dreaming to much of winning . I dont care. Because when we win soon , smile will be on their face , or maybe JEALOUSLY. God knows.

I get them back . The feeling , the feeling of wanting to perform on stage . The feeling of listening all those background music we choose being played. The feeling when you dance to those fun song and the feeling when you practice. God ,that feeling has come and please let it stay .

We will win for the first time this year.

Saturday, January 12, 2013

You know what is life?

Do you know what is life ? Life is something that you can explain in no matter what way . It is a gift from God .

Life is when you smile at a stranger on the street and they smile back.
Life is when you get hurt but you stand up and move on.
Life is when you laugh as hard as you want without thinking of anyone around you.
Life is you you try to be yourself instead of others.
Life is when you smile at your enemies.
Life is when you get broken heart but you fake a smile.
Life is when you have a bestfriend that share everything with you.
Life is when you read a good books and feel good about it.
Life is when you cook a very good food and share with your entire family.
Life is when you believe you can do something and you try hard to achieve it.
Life is when you fall in love with a baddass that melt your heart.
Life is when you count every drops of rain.
Life is when you meet a new people or old friends.
Life is when you have a mom who listens to your problem.
Life is when you have a jerk classmates.
Life is when you complain more than you pray.
Life is when your crush loves you back.
Life is when listening to music is part of you .
Life is when you cry alone at night.
Life is when you learn a new things.
Lastly , Life is all about YOU.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Saddest thing.

There's nothing worse than loosing who you thought was your best friend . They just woke up one morning and decided they don't like you anymore and talked bad thing about you behind your back . Break promises and and fotget all those memories .Its truly sad especially when you did nothing on and its only misunderstanding . But nevermind , i'll stand where I belong . Just end it here , i'm tired of being nice.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

my all

i give my all