Drama is part of me.

Acting ,Singing, Dancing . Thats all you can think of when it comes to drama . Drama is fun ,everything about it is so perfect. Why ?

They make me escape from reality . Terrible reality . I might not be myself when acting . But the feeling is different, very different .
I am enjoying it . I am loving it. I am feeling it.
Why ? Because they are around . My BEST FRIENDS.
I might act as a different person ,run away from reality ,but one thing that never change ,I have THEM. No matter where I am ,who I am . They are still around .

The feeling of yes or no was inside . Should I join drama again this year ? Should I spread my wings and be someone else again this year ? Should I ? or Should I just leave it to anothet people ? Should I just give up this year ?

I stopped . I looked at my best friends. Yes or no ?
YES. Those feeling that I felt last year came back . The feeling of joy and sadness . The promise I made to win again this year . YES . I'm doing it. Why ?

Because the stage was made for us . For us to perform ,for us to do our best . This year is belong to us . I want to be on stage again and do it again . I want to do my best since its our last performance . There is no more next year to wait to it. Its this year . Its our year .

 I miss all of it. I miss the feeling of performing on stage . I miss the feeling of sadness and happiness. I want more , I want more of it and its happening this year . No one can stop us .

Thats it . I set my mind to " I will win this ". And we will . We will do the best of our best . We will , nobody can beat us ,all eyes will be on us . I promise .

The Story Of Us. Thats what I call it. Its about us . It will be our last ,I dont know if we can meet again another year ,so let this year be our year . I dont care what the other will say about us , I dont care if the other think we are dreaming to much of winning . I dont care. Because when we win soon , smile will be on their face , or maybe JEALOUSLY. God knows.

I get them back . The feeling , the feeling of wanting to perform on stage . The feeling of listening all those background music we choose being played. The feeling when you dance to those fun song and the feeling when you practice. God ,that feeling has come and please let it stay .

We will win for the first time this year.

You know what is life?

Do you know what is life ? Life is something that you can explain in no matter what way . It is a gift from God .

Life is when you smile at a stranger on the street and they smile back.
Life is when you get hurt but you stand up and move on.
Life is when you laugh as hard as you want without thinking of anyone around you.
Life is you you try to be yourself instead of others.
Life is when you smile at your enemies.
Life is when you get broken heart but you fake a smile.
Life is when you have a bestfriend that share everything with you.
Life is when you read a good books and feel good about it.
Life is when you cook a very good food and share with your entire family.
Life is when you believe you can do something and you try hard to achieve it.
Life is when you fall in love with a baddass that melt your heart.
Life is when you count every drops of rain.
Life is when you meet a new people or old friends.
Life is when you have a mom who listens to your problem.
Life is when you have a jerk classmates.
Life is when you complain more than you pray.
Life is when your crush loves you back.
Life is when listening to music is part of you .
Life is when you cry alone at night.
Life is when you learn a new things.
Lastly , Life is all about YOU.

Saddest thing.

There's nothing worse than loosing who you thought was your best friend . They just woke up one morning and decided they don't like you anymore and talked bad thing about you behind your back . Break promises and and fotget all those memories .Its truly sad especially when you did nothing on and its only misunderstanding . But nevermind , i'll stand where I belong . Just end it here , i'm tired of being nice.

my all

i give my all

This is life.

Well , I don't really blame my life for what just happen . It is very silly to complain about it but I don't really care . I'm living my life but if you don't like it then what can I do ? Instead of complaining about it why don't you just meet me , face me and talk about it . You're the only one that feel that way . We're all fine and open minded so talk about it !! If you think you're right that don't be such coward talking behind me .  I waste my tears crying over someone like you . I waste everything !!?!??????????!!!!!!!!

Thanks for not ruining my holiday

Oh well , I start hating to go school . More than before ! You know why ? People has start and issue between me and one new guy at our class . They said me and him are dating ( WTF ) . I don't know and I don't understand how could this happen and where the fuck they got idea that we're together . Maybe its start because during exam he sat next to me . But if that's the reason I'll probably slap all of those guys student who fucking started this . I never told him to sit next to me though . I can't even stop thinking about this . There's like A LOT of whore and slut in our class that should being paired up with him . I don't like him since the first time he came .He cause a lot of trouble , always throw paper plane . He is just...... not my fave .

Not only that , they also called me with his name . Are they blind ? Dude , I have my own name . I'm very sensitive right now . I get hurt easily by people's words . We're like stranger to each other . The weirdest thing is that all my close friend like Afirah , Puteri , Mira , Syakirah & ofc my beloved Pudding call me with his name too sometimes ........................................... Pudding also though I maybe love him a little bit . I told her I don't but then she said I may didn't feel it but she can see it . Unnie are you Harry Potter or something ==" I don't love him ! I DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T DON'T LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE .LOVE LOVE HIM .

About the tittle " Thanks for not ruining my holiday " . That's for him . Not going to see him or hear his name or hear people CALLING me his name for 1 week ! SUCH A REALLY GOOD HOLIDAY <3 Thanks God :)

Dear you ,
Thanks for making my holiday fun because you're not around ! SUCH A REALLY PERFECT DAY BECAUSE I SPEND IT WITHOUT YOU !

Hello Mello !!

Hello readers !!! Its been a long time huh ? Sorry but I have been busy with school and freaking EXAM ! But its already done though . I know there must be a lot of couple that broke up right ? The girl or the boy excuse must be " I need to focus on my study " . I know it lol ! Don't worry , its not the end of the world . There still a lot of fish in the ocean :) Move on . It's a chapter in the past . But don't close the book , just turn the page . Oh well I actually don't deserve to give people advice . I'm not a nightmare buahaha .